Sunday, November 27, 2011
i thought i told myself i'd never cry for you, again
But.....
Cos I realised, that all my life I've been nothing but a disappointment. A major disappointment. To myself, and everyone else around me. I've tried so many things since young. And I've never been good in any of them. Multimedia, robotics, chinese chess, basketball, rugby, table tennis, judo and even studies. What the heck can I do properly? Even something that others don't even have to try, like making a friend happy, I've never managed. I only piss people off, disappoint them, fail to live up to any of their expectations.. I don't blame people cos it's not that they expect too much from me. It's just.... Me. Cos I am the failure. I am the failure.
All I ever wanted was that we can be happy as friends forever. But we've run out of things to talk about. We can't talk about judo. Will piss you off. Can't talk about sch, cos you did better in studies too. Talk about life, I have no life. Talk about people, you say I'm obnoxious. And whatever I talk about you don't seem to be interested anyway.
Are you very tired of me already? You don't need me anymore? You don't want me anymore?
I still need you.
But fug me lar who cares about me anyways.
Ng Guan Yi at 10:58 PM
Friday, November 25, 2011
What do I mean to you? Do I even stand a place in your heart? You mean everything to me but what do I mean to you?
Don't get pissed IF you see this, I'm just feeling insecure.
You probably won't see anyway. I don't think you even remember this site
Ng Guan Yi at 11:28 PM
It's getting hard to talk to you. Things changed.. Did I change? Did you change? It's killing me. I think you did. You probably think I did too, and I probably did. Why can't things just be like last time.. or did our friendship just expire. You'll probably have a lot of new friends next year when you come to jc. No, you sure will have a lot of new friends. I'll be jealous. But so what, by then I'll just be a nobody to you. Or am I, already?
Ng Guan Yi at 11:19 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2011
FUCK THIS SHIT LAR FUCK ME LAR piss you off for what..
Ng Guan Yi at 11:05 PM
Why can't you seem to understand that I wanna train very much too, and I'm feeling like heck cos my parents don't allow me to?? You unhappy with me for this type of things, what you expect me to do?? Liddat of course cannot talk like we used to lar..
Ng Guan Yi at 10:23 PM
Sunday, November 20, 2011
No one understands me. No one.
Ng Guan Yi at 1:08 PM
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Should I go for judo chalet? I think I'll feel weird.. I think what amanda said makes a lot of sense.. I whole day never go judo trng, then go for judo outings.. What will people say.. I kinda wanna go but don't wanna go at the same time. Haiz someone tell me what to do
Ng Guan Yi at 7:47 PM