Tuesday, April 28, 2009
happy birthday elaine huang yu fan!!! haha.
Ng Guan Yi at 12:00 AM
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
are you freaking pissed with me. or dont like me or something. why do you have to show me that face. i was told a lot of times that that face wasn't given on purpose. but i cant get it out of my head. im human too okay i have feelings too and that hurt a damn great deal. is it cos i like you? then i have to see that face every time. im sorry i fell for you lar. so sorry okay. so sorry.
tomorrow have to run 2.4. to hell with it man. what the shit lar i mean. my stamina. how can it die so much. until now i cannot even run 1 k. maybe not even 800m. plus now my muscles aching. my arms one lar. think it'll affect somehow. so plus the dead stamina i dont think i can get close to passing 2.4 lar. didnt know i got so unfit. i was supposed to be a sportsman ehh.
now lar. is when it all comes crashing. someone gave me this face that tore me down and apart, and then my stamina have to die and my muscles have to ache and 2.4 have to be tomorrow. and it's the real thing. the real napha 2.4. nothing to push me on when i run, and everything to pull me down. how i survive. can i just die. seems like an easier way out.
why this post like so emo. bullshit lar. today jap although got compo test and i fucked it all up but it's okay cos i sort of knew it'll turn out this way. we pissed sensei off a lot and it was fun okay. cos my face pisses her off and hers pisses me off too. not only me, i bet the whole class gets pissed off by her face lar.
today saw maehanyi. at moelc. waved to her xD and she waved back. or smiled back. sort of forgot i dont even know how i did it. i mean how i forgot it. haha. her smile so sweet. maybe cos i haven't seen a girl smile in such a long long time. all i've seen is a face on a girl that tells me im nothing and she doesnt give a damn. i liked her smile xD
Ng Guan Yi at 11:37 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
today afternoon damn pissed off with a bus driver lar. he at the interchange going out that traffic light stop ar. then i want to board i sign for him to open the door, then he bullshit dun wan open. so i ran all the way to the next stop it'll stop at. but some bloody hell bhangra sec1 block the way block block block then i missed the loser bus by abit only. so in the end when i reach plmgs already playing second game of second single. so i only see one game. but. win lar. so. haha. it's okayy.
im wondering how many girls i know from rg will go for ORA. hahaha. ehh. i just thinking only okay. not despo or whatever shit hor. cos the boys all from ri one i know who going ready. so.. ya lar. what's wrong with wondering. i know surely a lot of people will think im a despo shit just because i wondered how many girls i know from rg will go ORA. FUCK all of the people who thinks so lar. in their face man in their face, FUCK YOU.
shit. i just swore. see lar make me swear. haiyo. i just hate it so much when people think im despo. i'll punch the shit out of them okay. what the hell they want. i despo or not not for them to say one right. then anyhow say ready go spread everywhere. dont let me hear them saying lar. just be careful i wont hear okay.
Ng Guan Yi at 10:51 PM
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
ehh brudder why not online todayy?? i wait for so long still never come online i want to talk to you deh if i never talk to you i will feel very strange one leh. wah lao eh. dont offline ready lehh! want to talk want to talk!! hahaha xD
a few days ago ar. it rained damn heavily. in the middle of the road, i saw these two birds trying to hide from the heavy rain, under some bushes. hahaha. i think it's damn cute lor. but they so poor thing at the same time. aww. haha. imagine them wet then the feathers all screwed up arr. aiyo.. haha. but it's damn cute the way they hide under the bushes and the rain gets too heavy and hiding under the bushes doesn't help a shit. hahaha. i didnt know i loved nature so much. it made me happy lar. like. so relax. hahaha.
i realised my mind is never resting ehh. im always thinking. all the time. yupp all the time. but. of useless stuff lar. haha. i just realised that i spend all my time thinking rubbish. i mean all my time okayy. it's just that useful things cant stay in my head for a while. they dont stay at all. i cant think of important stuff deh.
Ng Guan Yi at 10:56 PM
Sunday, April 5, 2009
i dunno what to say lar. haiz.
my emotions mixed up lar. i also dunno how to say. i go for the looks?? aiya. a lot of people says so. let's just agree with that. i go for the looks.
how to love my life liddat. emo-ing is much easier. but even if im breakin inside who will notice. nobody will notice any change in me. haiz. does it really matter anyway. what's a few drops of tears to a happy laughter. what's a nursed heart to a broken one. wow. peiqi was right. now then i understand.
Ng Guan Yi at 2:20 AM
Saturday, April 4, 2009
谁在乎我的心里有多苦
谁在意我的明天去何处
这条路究竟多少崎岖多少坎坷途
我和你早以没有回头路
我的爱藏不住
任凭世界无情的摆布
我不怕痛不怕输
只怕是再多努力也无助
如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
终究已注定
是否能再多爱一天能再多看一眼
伤会少一点
如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
谁也逃不离
无情无爱此生又何必
谁在乎我的心里有多苦
谁在意我的明天去何处
这条路究竟多少崎岖多少坎坷途
我和你早以没有回头路
我的爱藏不住
任凭世界无情的摆布
我不怕痛不怕输
只怕是再多努力也无助
如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
终究已注定
是否能再多爱一天能再多看一眼
伤会少一点
如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
谁也逃不离
无情无爱此生又何必
如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
终究已注定
是否能再多爱一天能再多看一眼
伤会少一点
如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
谁也逃不离
无情无爱此生又何必
无情无爱此生我认命
Ng Guan Yi at 12:54 PM
i read my damn old smses cos my mother using my old phone and she wanted me to delete the messages cos she wanna use then the inbox full. and i suddenly wanna say to peiqi im damn sorry. i dunno why. yupp. im so sorry. you're so nice sweet patient kind clever cute caring and dunno still got a lot lar. so so so sorry. do you dislike me a lot now?? you wont be reading this lar most probably. but, in case you did lar. haha.
im supposed to read english articles but then i wanna sleep my eyes so sore. bloody hell i dont like english siia. what the shit. i dont like school i got this sudden strong disliking for school. i also dunno why. and maths. i tell you maths ar, is bullshit. bullshit!
i remember everything now. after looking through the messages to delete from my old phone which my mother is gonna use. wah lao. everything. the things vicky you once promised to do with me so many many things we wanted to do together. and then you leave me. but it's over now lar. i was just reminded of it. not that i always wanna talk about it. ya lar. it's over already and i know it. okayy. sorry for bringing this up again everybody just forget this. yupp.
we kena match fixed out of nationals lor. what the hell where can liddat one right. chung cheng and sji already got so many china then they still play liddat match fix us out. bloody hell. then still cannot appeal then very what ar. very frustrating. dunno how to say lar. i really think that china people should just go back china and then even if we cannot win china then we lose lar. dunnid to use china people to win right. besides singapore got somebody like pang xue jie. bloody hell lar. then still keep on taking china.
Ng Guan Yi at 12:31 AM
Thursday, April 2, 2009
wahh today saw xuejie own zhangdingji wa siia la jiblast damn nice lar. singapore all the way man!! own all the china players lar. i watch ready i get so high and proud to be a singaporean deh. hahaha. wah i suddenly love xuejie so much. he ownded zhangdingji siia. sick lar.
erm. i dunno why but suddenly i just thought of it lar. what if i've done a lot and you just dont like me. i think i'd die lar. i know i shouldn't be thinking of all these right now at this age lar but i just cant help it deh.
我真的好害怕我会追不到你，而有一天还要眼睁睁的看着你冲进另一个男人的怀抱里。
Ng Guan Yi at 11:54 PM