Wednesday, December 31, 2008

today training start half an hour only my whole hand like shit ready damn pain the skin peel off leh. then nobody got sandpaper. so i had to continue playing lor. shit.

then when i got home my shoulder damn pain. feels damn loose like going to drop out. and my left calf aching also. then my right chest also. and both my thighs. wah piang. i dunno tomorrow how i going to survive la.

Ng Guan Yi at 1:12 AM

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

wohoh. tomorrow have training. i think i should go sleep now. cos tomorrow training starts 9am.

i think my phone going to spoil siia. after i dropped it.. like the third or fourth time.. then everything started lagging. not that it doesn't lag normally but it just started lagging more after i dropped it. i think my phone is lousy :(

my shoulder pain-ing again. haiz. i dont like my shoulder. i think it's lousy too.

dunno whether tomorrow training will have people go anot. later very little people go very sian. especially since i want to arcade during lunch break. but dunno whether got people want to go or not la..

Ng Guan Yi at 1:11 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

Ng Guan Yi at 2:58 PM

Friday, December 26, 2008

tuesday i went to buy books then went out arcade. with chenwei and kevin ong. me and chenwei played initial d once. i won him. i realised that it's not so difficult lor. maybe cos i played the begginer course. then if every course liddat then not very difficult lor. but i always thought it's damn difficult. maybe it's different when you drive the car with a steering wheel and when you play it on psp where you can only press buttons. cos the feeling is very different. aiya. i just love the feeling of driving. i love driving. I LOVE DRIVING!!

i think elaine.. erm. dunno. i guess my heart just goes out to her? yea. cos i think the person she likes is hurting her a lot? aiya i duno la. i think she can't forget him. and she doesn't want to. but she can't accept the fact that the boy she loves the most is hurting her? that's what i think la. aiyo i already so lousy ready still go worry about others.. i think i should try to take care of myself first right..

i dunno what to say. i got a lot of things to say. but i guess i should just shut the fuck up and fuck off. really right?

Ng Guan Yi at 1:02 AM

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意 只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽
我像是着了迷 只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

Ng Guan Yi at 1:02 AM

Monday, December 22, 2008

erm.. i'm supposed to say happy things. i dunno what to say. oh ya! i saw this damn pro guy driving lor. he initial d also drift until like shit daytona also drift until like shit. all damn pro ok. initial d he play the whole thing never touch any corner once lorh. that's damn pro understand? if i drive initial d i'll drive down the hill or something. like off the course and fly off. yea. he's damn pro.

happy things happy things. aiya i dunno what to say la. oh i learnt how to use my phone today. but i deleted a lot of songs. but i dunno how to say i set the songs into sensme again. and i'm so happy i did it. haha. but it took damn long la. but i still happy and i like my phone even more now. i very lame heh xD

ok. liddat enough ready. i very happy xD so this is a happy post. haha =)

Ng Guan Yi at 3:33 AM

today actually is now i dont really feel like typing a lot of things.. today watch twilight. i liked it. i dunno why i liked it cos people said it wasn't nice. aiya but who cares i still like. cannot is it? i 就是 like leh. and then also got arcade. when arcading i almost lost my phone and that scared the shit out of me. cos i couldn't live without my phone. my phone is my life. really. then in the morning a lot of things happened. family matters. shall not tell everybody. haiz. yea. that's all. who call me dont feel like typing. today nothing much lor.

Ng Guan Yi at 3:28 AM

Saturday, December 20, 2008

you have no idea how much that hurts. why does it always have to be like that? first huirou. then you. what the fuck have i done wrong? does it always have to be like that? i have to stop liking you so that you'll not ignore me. k fine. that fucking hurts. a lot. you have no idea how much. it's like suddenly everything comes crashing. it all comes crashing down on you. you feel crushed. and heavy. like a block of ice lying on your chest. and you cant breathe.

i just read this. these few lines only. and i think it's very sad..

"the first day we met.
you gave me a candy
and said you love me

the second day we met.
you held my hand
and said you want to marry me.
when we grow up

the third day we met
you kissed me
in the hospital
and i had to say goodbye"

do you think i'm damn immature? cos i think i'm a kid. and i still a kid. i do things like a kid and i think like a kid. i'm a kid! can? i dont feel like i'm a 14 year old. i think i'm not even half. the way my mind is still so immatured.

Ng Guan Yi at 3:01 AM

Thursday, December 18, 2008

class chalet was quite fun la. but feels like haven't started then ended ready. i think it's not enough lor. and i seriously am going to organise next year. together with jun lun and somebody who can book the chalet. cos this one was a bit screwed up. although i had lotsa fun.

the first night me, chenwei, kweeyong, kevin ong, desmond, ruiyi watched movie until very late. we watched two versions of grudge. and before that we watched teeth. still got jaychou the kungfu dunk. and then jaychou concert. when we finished watching it was 6.24am. we wanted to watch sunrise and the time was like perfect if we went we can seriously see it. provided no mist or cloud la. but it was drizzling what the heck so we didn't go so wasted siia. so that was the first night and i didn't sleep a wink. cool right. then first time. then second night we bbq. and played some damn fun fighting game on ps2. it was fun cos when we played it was damn funny. i was using a damn hot girl all the time. and her name was damn sweet. her name was christie. haha. reminds me of another name. which is damn close to this name. bbq a lot of people damn screwed. like nat. but never mind i lazy to type so much. especially about him. no use lor.

today we went to tampines mall in the morning after we checked out of the chalet. then we did a lot of things. i LAN with my friends. today was the first time in my life i ever LANed. and it was quite fun. yea. at first i didn't like the idea of LANing lor.. yea. they forced me to go and in the end i enjoyed it. xD but in the arcade i saw this guy who kept on looking at me with a very kiam pa face cos i blocked his girlfriends path. i seriously wanna bash him up la he think he what. cao him la.

p.s hey. i stopped smsing you cos i didnt want to disturb you ok. whenever i sms you i will feel like i'm irritating you. cos it's like i'm the only one you reply very slowly. not that i dont like you anymore or whatever it's not true! i said i miss peiqi in the previous post i know. but it's different ok. dont think liddat can? my feelings will never change ok. at least not so easily. in fact the feeling is getting stronger every minute every second and it makes me feel that i never will be good enough for you. but i really will try ok. and i'm not despo and my feelings for a girl will never change so easily once i had given it to a girl. besides now it's so strong the way i'm feeling. people wanna laugh wanna roll their eyes wanna say im despo their prob i know i'm not. cos i wont stop liking you. and i wont change. even if it sends me to heaven i will always wanna be someone. to you. ok?

Ng Guan Yi at 1:22 AM

Monday, December 15, 2008

today my family went to my father's brother's (which is my uncle) house to see my father's mother (which is my grandmother) cos she came out here from malaysia. she come not so often so whenever she comes my father will sure go see her. and then see my uncle's son, baby or toddler or somewhere there, he very cute. my sis ask me take video or photo or something i took video actually but deleted cos my memory card no space. so in the end no photo no video. but he was really cute. ya.

i think i gonna fall sick tonight. tomorrow i'm gonna wake up with a fever and sore throat. shit. cos of the rain lor. today i like kena a lot of rain cos today whole day never go home. today was a very lousy day. cos almost everything my family wanted to do in the end never manage to do. really very suay.

and i think i miss peiqi a lot a lot deh. ms sunshine. haha xD

Ng Guan Yi at 2:03 AM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

暂停 算不算放弃

Ng Guan Yi at 12:54 AM

Friday, December 12, 2008

oh shit i forgot what i wanted to say.. but dont care la i always forget what i want to say. class chalet coming soon siia. i think it'll be more fun if kesmond can go lor. but dunno la he not going i think.

today really rained damn heavily..

i got new games on my phone. and i cannot stop playing man. i very lame right..

Ng Guan Yi at 1:06 AM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

hoho. this is the 100th post since my blog started.

today after training trampoline was quite fun. but after that everybody left at once and then suddenly i'm the only one left. it's like that type of feeling. i dont like. so empty. i'm not gay la. but it's like suddenly everybody pangseh you. but later met 大哥 in canteen lor at least not so bored.

i gave my seat to a little girl on mrt today. then her father said to me, " We appreciate it, thanks." and gave me a smile. i felt so bad. cos it was like i only have one more stop then i gave my seat to her. then somemore when i gave my seat it was like.. there was this girl. when she sat beside me i straight away stand up. and then give up my seat. i straight away shoot up from my seat. aiya heck care la.

i wanna change a blogskin but i cannot find wah lao. eeeeeeeeeeee x( and my tagboard very dead lor. and i very random. i love jay chou!.

Ng Guan Yi at 2:23 AM

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Ng Guan Yi at 5:13 PM

Monday, December 8, 2008

everybody sucks

Ng Guan Yi at 8:30 PM



i found this thing in my cupboard. brought back a lot of memories about someone. i never thought it would.

Ng Guan Yi at 12:17 AM

Thursday, December 4, 2008

i mood swing just now. training come back quite ok. then later reach home. still feeling quite ok. but later when i went out to have dinner then i started feeling damn.. dunno how to describe. it's like putting a damn big block of ice on your chest. feel so suffocated. so heavy. like my heart was barely beating..

today training was 9am to 5pm. 9 to 12 and 2 to 5. morning no feeling. but afternoon got feeling. and i xiao qiu until damn nice. xiao nicky. really nice man. but later after training. got prob. i flew off trampoline. so it's equal to falling from second storey. and the floor was the hard floor. and i'm still alive. cool right.

i always read people's blog then get emo. i just now read vicky's blog. then now emo.

and i think elaine's damn funny! haha. she likes chicken so much xD

Ng Guan Yi at 12:49 AM

Monday, December 1, 2008

i just read some of elaine's post.. read one of the emo ones. then i get so emo too. she once told me the guy she likes likes her too. so i think that guy she likes doesn't know how to cherish her la. and he will sure regret it.. really. if what elaine told me was true la. but love is blind la. yea. love is really really blind. really.

today was actually quite fun. today i was damn high. i dunno why. then i went to shop around with my family but in the end we didn't know where to shop so we ended up in my uncle's house. cos we just so happened to be at his block at that time. then i said "let's go up." and we really went up. for like one and a half hours. it's like he never invite us or whatever and we never call him to tell him. then we just went up. yea. so funny la.

i seem to have forgotten something. and i cannot remember what is it. hey shit what is it what is it what is it someone tell me!!!

Ng Guan Yi at 1:14 AM