Tuesday, July 21, 2009
my mood swings are coming back again.. and when it swings, there's like this very powerful frustration that cant get out. one day i may just go crazy. and no one will be there to save me. i've got no one. no one.
im getting really tired of my life. and i really need a break. but there just isn't any. life isn't going my pace, my rythm, my beat. but there's no one. no one.
-you're just a girl who talks to no one but your church friends. you find no point in talking to this guy who likes your face. he admits he's shallow, to only like you for your looks, but he really wants to know more. yet everytime he talks to you, you crush him even more. he just wants to talk to you. he smses you, you always stop replying after once or twice. it's been a long time since he smsed you. but that isn't because he's not thinking of you, it's just that he's scared. of you.
but he likes you.-Ng Guan Yi at 10:39 PM
Thursday, July 9, 2009
got daoed by her again two days ago. joke, why i get daoed by everybody. fucking pissing eh. sometimes i want to talk normally like how i talk to other people cos if not the way i talk to her is really boring. but then, haiz what the fuck lar why should i try so hard anyway. she just daos what. bullshit.
today bio was disgusting. we had to disect this little fish. so we pulled out all the internal organs. then my partner squeezed all of them until they exploded. then i took the fish then pulled out the eyeball. then another one came out together cos the two eyeballs connected. then my partner burst one of the eyeballs. wah lao eh damn disgusting. actually my friend got take photo one but the teacher dont allow my friend to keep the photos so in the end have to delete them all lor.
no training nowadays. i getting fat lar what the hell. i want trainings to start soon! bloody hell. and im beggining to dunno how to play table tennis ready. i think i've almost forgotten everything. all my strokes become bullshit ready. joke. i cant even remember the strokes. my service also screwed up. and im losing my power. i need to whack some balls really soon.
coming tuesday is jap ca4. i think i'll fail it again. but aiya who cares. it's like, i try to care for my studies. i tried to feel sad when i flunked my maths test earlier on today, but i just cannot.
many people who used to be my friends are becoming realy irritating. sec school one. i dont even keep in contact with my primary school friends anymore, although i have their contacts. erm. i shall not say who are the irritating ones. who knows. they might find my blog one day.
Ng Guan Yi at 11:59 PM
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
wah lao eh i always wished every of my friend happy birthday lor. then when my birthday i only got five person wish. bullshit lar. i hate you all lar. i wish you all you all never wish me.
but this year at least better lar. got some people remember. not like last year. the only one who knew remembered my birthday wrongly. what the shit lar.
i sound like a petty bullshit. but i love brudder lar. at least she wrote me something xD and i think it was pretty :D hahaha.
Ng Guan Yi at 12:10 AM