Saturday, November 21, 2009
omg i thinking im becoming gay.
seriously. err. not that i get turned on by man, just i get turned off by girls.
woah. havent blogged for almost one whole month. i dont really know what to say though..
rebecca zhang. daoing me arr? its okay though. not that its killing me anyway. it disturbs a bit but, whatever. its okay.
i realised my temper has been very bad nowadays, like easily pissed and.. yea. i thought i have already stopped being like this, but its coming back siia.
i used to care a lot about how people think of me. but now it seems that its not so important anymore. its impossible to keep a good impression on everyone. surely some people will hate. but its not something i can care about..
i think im getting used to being alone, not going out except only for training.. i dont really like being alone, but still, im getting used to it.
i only need to sms one person. and i do everyday. in contact everyday, we're supposed to be close right.. but i dont even remember how her voice sounds like. when we met in school she wouldn't even look at me. cos i got a scary face.. somehow i like it when she says my face is fierce, but i dont exactly like everything about it. i dont get it, why is my face fierce. and why is it scary. i mean i know it, but i dont understand.
im becoming lazy, and as a result, weak.
i dont like rain. since young, the cold that comes with the rain, has always made me feel funny. everytime it rains, i'll have this feeling. like even if i had friends or im at home with my family and they're right beside me, i'll still feel lonely.
i dont know who reads my blog, and im not comfortable with being too honest and saying everything or complaining anymore. who knows who will read my blog. i used to complain a lot but now i cant anymore..
Ng Guan Yi at 1:21 PM