Tuesday, April 21, 2009
are you freaking pissed with me. or dont like me or something. why do you have to show me that face. i was told a lot of times that that face wasn't given on purpose. but i cant get it out of my head. im human too okay i have feelings too and that hurt a damn great deal. is it cos i like you? then i have to see that face every time. im sorry i fell for you lar. so sorry okay. so sorry.
tomorrow have to run 2.4. to hell with it man. what the shit lar i mean. my stamina. how can it die so much. until now i cannot even run 1 k. maybe not even 800m. plus now my muscles aching. my arms one lar. think it'll affect somehow. so plus the dead stamina i dont think i can get close to passing 2.4 lar. didnt know i got so unfit. i was supposed to be a sportsman ehh.
now lar. is when it all comes crashing. someone gave me this face that tore me down and apart, and then my stamina have to die and my muscles have to ache and 2.4 have to be tomorrow. and it's the real thing. the real napha 2.4. nothing to push me on when i run, and everything to pull me down. how i survive. can i just die. seems like an easier way out.
why this post like so emo. bullshit lar. today jap although got compo test and i fucked it all up but it's okay cos i sort of knew it'll turn out this way. we pissed sensei off a lot and it was fun okay. cos my face pisses her off and hers pisses me off too. not only me, i bet the whole class gets pissed off by her face lar.
today saw maehanyi. at moelc. waved to her xD and she waved back. or smiled back. sort of forgot i dont even know how i did it. i mean how i forgot it. haha. her smile so sweet. maybe cos i haven't seen a girl smile in such a long long time. all i've seen is a face on a girl that tells me im nothing and she doesnt give a damn. i liked her smile xD
Ng Guan Yi at 11:37 PM