Sunday, January 18, 2009
this morning, i dreamt that i became a gangster. then as i was walking along outside some pubs, i accidentally banged into another gangster, then he sent his men to whack me. but i ran away and one followed. i ran and ran until i went into a car park, then i fought him. i won the fight by a lot. and i almost let him go alive. but then i turned back and killed him. then i ran away. then i was damn scared that the police will come after me. but for damn long they didn't find out it was me. so i carried on with life. except that i didn't do the things gangster did anymore. then i found the love of my life. and we got married. then shortly after we got married, i was arrested and sentenced to life imprisonment. then i started regretting why i ever got into the triad. yea. then i woke up, and found myself crying damn hard. like my eyes were sore. shit i don't know why ok. it was just a dream. but it was vivid. i still remember every detail now. i still remember.
i think i'm very much like a girl right. when i watch touching love stories i'll cry. when i hear sad or touching songs i'll cry. when i see sad or touching scenes on tv or movie i'll cry. and this morning i cried because of a dream.. why do i cry so easily?? i wanna be a little stronger. just a little is enough k. i wanna be stronger.
Ng Guan Yi at 1:59 AM