Monday, January 26, 2009
er. i went to malaysia. yupp. some people probably knew about it. the first day we went to some mangrove swamp. at first i thought i'd afraid of getting dirty. but in fact i wasn't. haha. and i had fun. yea.
actually i wanted to say a lot of things. a lot a lot. but now dont have ready. i dunno how to say how i feel. all mixed up. anybody who knows me would never believe that i'm a person who'd let a tear drop. i too didn't believe it. until now. baby, my eyes are sore. i almost washed my face with tears. and i dont think i can get over it so soon. i shouldn't have come online today at all. then nothing would have happened. when vicky dumped me i promised myself it'll be the last time i'll cry. but today i broke that promise. i so totally broke it. inside out outside in i fucked it all up. i'm sorry i cried again. you think i wanted to i didn't want to. i'm shattered all over again. bloody hell. i'm sorry i'm not making any sense but what sense does sense make. everybody sucks.
sadness is beautiful. but the one i'm feeling now is not. it's fucking me up and i think i gotta rest now. because my eyes are really sore. from what, you know. everybody evrybody everybody sucks.
Ng Guan Yi at 1:32 PM